Well its official... I've lost my charisma, the omph that makes me, ME!!! If you find it, i'll post my return address!!
I've been wondering why this is, what has caused me to feel so glum?? Wondering why i had to burn my toast this morning?? Why I was running late on the school run...Why Why Why???
Well i tell you why, I have NO energy, because I'm pregnant!!! No.. seriously I have no energy because I'm focasing all my energy into hating the ex wife and more particually her sister, as she's the one doing all the following, and giving us shit (sorry). And I need to take a step back for a day, in scrooge style, and remember what I truely have. I have two beautiful children, who need their Mummy to be a happy mummy, the bad energy is no good for them, and I know it will reflect in their behaviour. I have a fantastic hubby, who is trying to do his best with the ex family, and is trying to let it go.... and do what is best for us. I have a beautiful sister, who listens to me moan on and on, day after day, and I'm sure she'd rather have her happy sister back. And my mum to, I'm sure she'd rather have a happy daughter back, not this grumpy bitter one!!
But the truth is, I live my life every day, watching my step, where I go, what I am doing.... just incase I bump into the ex, and I cause some sort of up roar!!! I shouldn't have to live my life this way, and put my family through this, I am gonna have to figure out how to change this, and I think a move is in order... now all I have to do is convince Christian!!!!
Lia,
ReplyDeletei know it must be hard having this happen,
if she is making things hard, maybe she doesnt know and you could aske her to back off and tell her what its like.
If you think it might cause an uproar take some one like your sister with you.
if she is doing it just to be a cow then perhaps getting a restraining order is the right move i live in NZ so im not sure if thats what you call them :)